Chief Counselor's Log #1 - The Tsuge
Posted on Thu Sep 29th, 2016 @ 9:50pm by Lieutenant JG Tate Sullivan Ph.D.
Although I doubt anything could completely crush the crew's good humor and can-do spirit, I've noticed the mood aboard is a bit more somber. Under the circumstances, I would expect nothing else. One would have to be completely devoid of a heart or any feeling at all to not being emotionally affected by the ruthless attack the Tsuge’s crew has suffered. It's only experience and repetition that's helped me keep my emotions in check as I seek to give comfort to traumatized survivor after traumatized survivor, but even I have had to take steadying breaths between sessions after hearing all of these accounts of suffering.
Of course, any attack in which lives are lost is cause for immeasurable trauma and grief, but at least with the Borg, for example, there is a complete lack of emotion and a coldness there that can't be changed and can't be fought. It doesn't stop someone from grieving the loss, but at their core, one could argue the Borg are just doing what they were always programmed to do, with every bit of emotion and sense of morality stripped from drones from the beginning, as if none of that were ever there in the first place.
By all accounts, that wasn't the case with these pirates. They were capable of feeling, of understanding right from wrong. None of us have any reason to doubt they weren't given some degree of socialization as it relates to a sense of morality. Yet, they attacked ruthlessly and slaughtered dozens of people, leaving a handful of survivors to bear the emotional scars of being left behind. Needless to say, I and the rest of the counseling staff have our work cut out for us, but at the same time, none of us can imagine doing anything else.
In addition to the survivors, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't concerned for the emotional well-being of my own crew. I know our chief engineer personally witnessed the devastation and helped to oversee the recovery effort. From the very beginning, Hel struck me as such an even keeled officer, one who knew herself well, whose coping skills weren't easily overwhelmed, but it's that very image that could prevent her from reaching out for help if she found herself overwhelmed by all she saw. I may reach out to her, just to let her know I'm around, but I have a feeling others in the command staff may have done so already. It certainly isn't the first rodeo for the vast majority of them, no matter how checkered their past may be.
When we find the people responsible, I know it's going to be difficult for the crew as a whole to keep their rage in check, and again, I'd be fooling myself if I pretended I didn't have anything to worry about. It's no secret our crew is more…colorful than the average crew and this will be our first test of impulse and emotional control. Time will tell, naturally, but if I were inclined in the remotest way, I might just feel sorry for the pirates.